The Use of Child Soldiers in Armed Combat

This is my writing in my tumblr before....

Every child has a big dream. Do you remember? When we was on the elementary school, our teacher asked, “What is your dream, dear?” and we answered enthusiastly , “ I want to be a doctor”, “I want to be like you Ma’am I want to teach the child like you do”, “I want to be an architect because I want to make a house for my parents…” and many more.

But, what can we see now? A war in a several country, because of ego from the adults (major), destroyed that dreams. 

“..I had a dream my life would be 

So different from this hell I am living 

So different now from what it seem. 

Now life has killed the dream i dreamed” 

(I  Dreamed a Dream- populareted by Sussan Boyle)

Probably this song can explain how deep down from their children’s heart. Different with the child from the other country, they who lived in the war country, have to “kill” they dreams. They are still 14-18 years old, but they have to be a “volunteer” into a combat. The boys  have to be a “volunteer” for a war because of family pressure, political reasons, and the main factor is major determinant (ex: at Libya’s war) and the girls forced to have a marriage, victim of domestic violence, exploitation and abuse.

Are they thinking about the impact for childs?  Are they just emphasizing their ego?  They are ours, they are our next generation, they will make extraordinary breaktrough to solve the conflict without war.  Are they (who forced the children to be child soldier) ever thought that the children have to reach their dreams? Did  they hear their conscience? How dare they sacrifice the children dreams just for a POWER so the children got the injury or got killed?

            I think we will verry happy when we can hold each other on, no more child soldiers in armed combat. 

 “…event though we are not the same different ways 

and we walk on different path different road in this life 

can we hold each other hand together in this world 

and be as one

It will be a better place better hope

place that gives up peace of mind filled with love no more tears 

place where you and I can love 

no more cries on this life 

the place for us to be one..”

(To be One- Gita Gutawa)

 What a wonderful world if we are UNITED.

A Message

I enjoy meet person in personal than in a group. Why? Because, I got intimacy in the conversation. You can show yourself as A B C D in a group but you show me YOURSELF when meet me in personal. You may (still) use your mask but I can easily recognize it.

In some case, they may look cheerful, friendly, have a lot of friend but deep inside it they feel so lonely and no body care. They feel awkward when you meet in personal. They couldn't keep the conversation smooth.

Or

In some case they may look so lonely, name it introvert but actually they can tell alot when you meet them in personal.

You surprisingly know that, "Ok, this person can be my friend".

It's their choice to become that person. I don't really care about it. Whatever your choice, please be genuine and honest atleast with yourself.

You May Come to The Same Place but Not The Experience

What I mostly like about travelling even I am going to the same place? EXPERIENCE.


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So, the 3^rd time I went to Malaysia on February 2019, for the first time, I am going abroad by myself, because usually I travel in a group or atleast with someone. Actually I am not going there really alone because I met my friend, Reza, there. We decided to go to Melacca as our destination.
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And I got the new experience that I will never forget. 

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Even that day Melacca's in a high degree, we’re still had a spirit to explore from one place to another on foot, take a lot of picture, until my battery was about to die. We decided to stop at the café which I read on someone's blogspot as must to go café in Melacca.

Surprised that there's a man played a keyboard and sang. I talked to Reza "Za, can I sing a song here"?" And he said, "Yes, maybe you can". Then we chose a seat near the socket where a woman named Aunt Song, sitting there.

She was look at me, started a conversation by told me that the man named Phillips, who played a music was her son, and he has an autism. But, that condition never stop him to  do his passion -> play a music.

While Reza busy with his business, Aunt Song asked me to choose a song for Phillips. And guess what? She allow me to had a duet with Phillips by singing You Raise Me Up and Burung Kakak Tua.

After had a duet, me, Reza, Aunt Song, and Phillips had an exciting conversation. We talked about food, life, shared our daily activity  and many more.

Aunt Song suggest us to pay attention with the nutrition. "We are what we eat. Maybe today both of you look health and have full of energy. But if you are not paying attention with ur food, who knows what will happened in a few years laters. Heart dissease, blood high pressure, etc", she said.

To be honest, I rather feel envy to Aunt Song and Phillips. Why? Because from that conversation I can see how they enjoy their life by doing their passion. Phillips with his music and Aunt Song with her passion as a teacher (fyi Aunt Song was a teacher in Math, Mandarin, and English). Besides, they also be grateful of their life by kept their health.

Inspiring.


An hour later, my device was fully charge and unfortunatelly we had to say goodbye to them because we must continue our trip.

My story above make me learnt that we may come to the same place but not the experience.

Even I went to Malaysia for 3 times, but had a deep conversation with stranger and doing something out of plan is a new experience for me.

I wish you have another good story to tell too,Sybs. Good night!

Reflection (Me in You)

Pernah kepikiran ngga alasan kenapa kita bisa ga suka sama orang because actually they reflect us.


Have you experienced this?—> When you met this person for the first time, you felt like you clicked with this person. Communications and meetings are going intense and interest to each other.

Kalau dicerita-cerita film romance, the ending should be happy ending. But, it’s a big no.

Semakin kita tahu siapa dia, kita justru merasa semakin ga cocok.

Gue berpikir apakah karena awalnya kita terlalu excited di awal sehingga bahan pembicaraan sudah habis dan akhirnya jadi biasa aja. Bahkan ada hal-hal yang kadang kita ngerasa kaya "apaan sih ni orang". Dari yang interest jadi ngga suka. Bahkan jadi ga mau ketemu lagi sama orangnya.

Hal ini terjadi ngga hanya satu kali selama 25 tahun hidup gue.
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Gue bertanya, kok bisa ya?
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Then.... I found the answer.

Di dalam kasus gue,  gue melihat ada sisi buruk di diri yang gue ga suka tercermin di dia. Gw melihat sisi keras kepala gue, egois gue, dan nyebelinnya gue ada di sana semua. I feel like looking my self at the mirror. 

Dan, ya, Tuhan memang sebaik itu sama gue. Dia mencoba mengingatkan gue untuk selalu berubah menjadi diri yang lebih baik lagi. Tuhan memberi kode ke gue agar gue bisa lebih toleran terhadap lingkungan sekitar gue, lebih ngelihat sisi lain dari orang-orang di sekitar gue, and trying to not judgemental because actually they did something because a reason.

The point is gue jadi introspeksi diri, setiap gue dipertemukan dengan orang yang gue ga suka. Seperti berkontemplasi, "Apakah gue senyebelin itu  kalau sisi marah-marah gue lagi keluar? Apakah gue senyebelin itu kalau lagi egois?"
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Memang, sesekali berkaca itu perlu.
Punya cermin?

REHAT (Take a Break)

First, kindly listen to this song REHAT (in english : BREAK).

My life was full filled by my ambitions. I have to a, b, c, d, to many things. Start from important things like career, education, wealth, until trivial things like weight, cloth, food. Until sometimes I get dizzy with myself because my brain wants to explode fighting with my ideal, I HAVE TO GET EVERYTHING.

I am even become so hard on myself. I forgot everything because I dedicated everything to get what I wanted to. After I got A, I run to B, looked for another door. NEVER ENDING DOOR. Just because I can not only be satisfied. Until if the result’s lower of my EXPECTATION, I got sick, inner sick. Tearless cry, unspoken anger, feel empty, blame myself. At this point I reached my limit and asked, "What do I want".

At the moment, I realized that it’s important to take a break like song above because we need it. We need a space to contemplate, talk to Allah, flashback for all of our efforts, remember the support around us and Allah intervention. Then be grateful, arrange the priority, take a deep breath, and start again with a calmly rhythm. Let the universe work.

Tenangkan hati
Semua ini bukan salahmu
Jangan berhenti
Yang kau takutkan
Takkan terjadi

The Game Is Not Over

Prologue: Don’t ask me about the purpose of this post, because I will let your perception.

Who has never been angry on this earth? After getting angry, what did you do? Forgive it? Forgiveness is the hard thing but make a decision about what to do after it is the hardest for me. 

The highest level of my anger was when I decided to never assume that the person who made me angry existed. Even though they were in front of my eyes, I always thought that they weren’t there. Why? Because what did they done were too hurt for me. I often want to give up and it feels like I want to go away from their life. 

But, what always happen in my life?

The harder I tried to go away, the easier I met them. I always asking Why? But after I was busy contemplating with myself then I found a point of view that if I left, I will make their life easier. But sorry if I wouldn’t make it easy for you because I decided to continue my life better. Although I need to present in your life, I will confront you anyway by still assuming that you are never existed. 

So sorry if THE GAME IS NOT OVER, baby. It is not me who have to go but you.

Respect to Their Choice

Hello SYBS*,


One fine Saturday at Sushi Bar, me and my friends discussing about our education goal, strategy, and timeline to reach it. Until there’s a conversation about some of my friend education who lived in planet K. I criticized about their consideration while choosing a university which seems random for me. They don't want to get out from their comfort zone. Below are mostly their considerations :

1. The distance between office or domicile to university;
2. They just need a title or degree;
3. Fee.

For me education is one of I need to think carefully about. So I won't choose point 1 or 2 as my consideration while choosing a university. Here are my ideas :

1. The quality of the university especially the major I would like to take. You can find it at QS World Rank;
2. The environment. I need an environment which safe, can drive me to be an open minded women, give me a freedom to express my opinion.

3. Fee. But, I'll struggle to get a scholarship if it can't be covered by my financial capability.


My friends remind me that all of my opinions were right but I need to respect their decision because he's sure if they take it depend on their needed and capability. He told me, "If they just need a degree and won't out from their comfort zone, so why? Let them do by their own path. You don't have a responsibility to them because you are not the one who sponsor their education".

Do you have any other consideration about choosing the university?


*Saudara yang Budiman (SYB): appellation for my blog readers. additional S behind for showing that it's a plural.